Summer Train

Kurang dari dua puluh hari lagi tahun 2012 habis dan berganti dengan tahun 2013. Sadar? Kalau saya enggak. Saya aja sekarang masih enggak sadar kalau saya udah SMA, udah pakai baju putih-abu-abu, bukan putih-biru lagi. Tapi-tapi-tapi tetep aja ngerasa kayak masih pakai seragam putih-biru. Rasanya baru kemarin pakai seragam putih-merah di SMP untuk terakhir kalinya—karena memang saya yang terakhir memakai seragam putih-biru di kelas saya.

Cuma satu yang saya heran.

Kapan saya bisa move on?

민혁’s ‏@hapsdyah

@Mandazalia 4 tahun…? Kamu gila mand, gila. #heh kok buat acara apaan? Itu seragam wajib tiap jumat sayang =’))

4 tahun? Lebih. 

Dari kelas 4 SD yang bener. Berarti hampir 6 tahun.

민혁’s ‏@hapsdyah

@Mandazalia kamu ikan yang setia berarti ya :’) #apaan ah kamu jangan terlalu berharap sama dia, kan ada aku disini :’) #plak 

Saya sempat putus asa sebenernya, mikir; ‘Ah, paling dia juga udah gak inget lagi sama aku.’ Atau ‘Paling dia juga udah punya pacar dari dulu, liat aja temen sekelasnya, cantik-cantik. Aku pasti kalah.’

Tapi habis itu entah datang dari mana saya tiba-tiba mikir; ‘Kalau dia bener-bener nunggu saya? Kalau dia tahu saya sekarang udah punya pacar gimana? Kalau dia ngerasa saya mengingkari janji ‘itu’ gimana?’ Dan saya kembali galau. Saya tahu mungkin ini kelewat overthinking, tapi ya mau gimana lagi, saya emang terkadang kayak gitu, masalah dikit aja sampe berhari-hari gak selesai. Pfft.

Yang aku pengen sekarang, aku pengen ketemu dia, yang katanya juga masuk program yang sama—Akselerasi. Bedanya dia di sekolah yang jauh, sangat jauh bahkan, lebih bergengsi ketimbang sekolah saya. Padahal kita enggak pernah kontak satu sama lain apalagi janjian buat masuk Akselerasi. Intinya saya pengen ketemu sama dia, entah waktu reunian SD atau malah enggak sengaja ketemu waktu saya berangkat les (tempat saya les deket saya sekolah dia, btw).

Dear, MHR. I’m still exist, btw. 

Jadi ceritanya habis iseng-iseng nyoba » http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/ dan hasilnya di bawah itu =)) mirip dan ya begitulah =)) #dhuak

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. 
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. 
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don’t have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you’ll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it’s hard to get you to budge.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.